I have experienced that if skip even one day after 8 hour of physical labor streak my energy levels suddenly go to the bottom and I start to feel super bad. It’s quite strange because I do not think I could not be depressed if I had a sedentary job. Sedentary things just destroy me. Also I like and wanted job in programming/cs so yeah. Gotta career switch or something apparently because cardio in the evening isn’t enough, I am like golden retriever. Only truly satisfied when all my muscles ache at the end of the day. And also I need immediate results out of my work
What is my favourite thing about it is keeping ego in check, it is a life saver to learn to let go of ego sometimes so it doesn’t get in the way of life
Fully agree, that’s a good point! No-self is a radical idea. What got you interested in it?
When I first learned of meditating it also was a really new experience for me, letting my mind try to sit quietly. Coming from a you are a bad Christian if you don’t sit quietly and talk to god church lol.
I guess I have some narcissistic tendencies sometimes and I think it’s like perfect counter to these patterns. Besides it just feels extra good when I kind of shrink myself in these ways and let other things shine instead of me occupying all the space. I guess maybe that this is is also turning off the adhd chatter
I am really super green to these things and I am just having fun. also it’s much different than I thought it is. I knew that it is different than Catholicism I grew up with but I never really had a chance to understand why exactly
Then I had an occult phase, thinking I could be great mighty witch phase I guess
Problem is I never really seeked spiritualism for the right reasons but only to feel better and superior than others, have some secret knowledge. That was such a confusing way
I am trying to minimise my self and so to make space for everything else to shine, it started here: https://www.amazon.com/Cutting-Through-Spiritual-Materialism-Chogyam/dp/1570629579