i am, i now hav the legal document for it, i jus— hav to get my blodd drawn next monday ;((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

i wana look like my mothr, shes a rlli preddi womn. shes perfect- essentially. if i cud be her- like - woag. id be rlli happi-

imma hide dis post…,

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i wsh.,

mayb online permayhaps -

i wan be grl who likes grlz in a comfi way n makes them feel comf too n stuff-…,.

yesyis!

mayb my therapist can somhow seee cryin in bed n give hrt then >//v//<

yesyes- thatll do it - like - pain does actulli do stff - right? -

otherwise it wud jus be useless sadness, n thad doesn make sense cuz of the finite amount of energy in the universe - like - pain is mor than jus physically gettin hurt - its also the mental stff. so thadental stuff has to go somwhere- yea! so its magicalli transmitted to the peeps whi need to see ut most with highest likelihood of thm changing thad sad thing to good.

obvobv-

shud i continue to actively makin myself mor ugly by the day, by simply eatin n drinkin? shud i continue purchasin products to further create distance between the humans n the rich?

doesn matter. do it! it doesn brake anythin! ur safe! <3

yea nu, didn do dis >v<

heheeeeeeee she said many peeps jus com to her n wait til they get their e n dun actulli discuss anythn, so i felt thad was sad n tried to mek it mor intrstng by bein lik “eh, mayb the trans bt lik - mayb nt!” n… thad went wrong direction… i ended up nt sayin anythn clearli trans cuz i thought she think “oh, dis humn jus wans them e. oh well…,… another one of these.,…,…” n now im evn worse off, big sads n tellin myslelf thad its all my fault for tryin to not mek things boring for her >//v//< heheeeeeeee still waitin for e ~

i wan e

yes

:oooooo

lisaaaaaaaaaaaa <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

yisyis nsfw. vrri sad…

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yis ;(

ew.

i hav tried… my knees jus cnt be bent crazy lik dis… i nev evr sat lik dis, n i avoid the kneelin kinds of stance cuz… knees hurt kindsas bad.,-.

i wsh I cud sit lik dis >~<

_{… i kno… ;(}

yisyis i wan hrt rlli rlli rlli rlli rlli rlli rllir liirrl rlli rlli rlliril rlli lrlil rlili rlli bad…