yea nu, didn do dis >v<

heheeeeeeee she said many peeps jus com to her n wait til they get their e n dun actulli discuss anythn, so i felt thad was sad n tried to mek it mor intrstng by bein lik “eh, mayb the trans bt lik - mayb nt!” n… thad went wrong direction… i ended up nt sayin anythn clearli trans cuz i thought she think “oh, dis humn jus wans them e. oh well…,… another one of these.,…,…” n now im evn worse off, big sads n tellin myslelf thad its all my fault for tryin to not mek things boring for her >//v//< heheeeeeeee still waitin for e ~

i wan e

yes

:oooooo

lisaaaaaaaaaaaa <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

yisyis nsfw. vrri sad…

;(

…

;(

yis ;(

ew.

i hav tried… my knees jus cnt be bent crazy lik dis… i nev evr sat lik dis, n i avoid the kneelin kinds of stance cuz… knees hurt kindsas bad.,-.

i wsh I cud sit lik dis >~<

_{… i kno… ;(}

yisyis i wan hrt rlli rlli rlli rlli rlli rlli rllir liirrl rlli rlli rlliril rlli lrlil rlili rlli bad…

myslelf!!! >~< ;(

i dun wana see dis guy wear these preddi things. hes lik - yea nu he doesn look gud at all. i wouldn wan othr peeps to see him lik dis too-.-… ,.,.,m,m,.,-,…,…

oh nununununu there aren’t bad peeps in my life… there aren’t any peeps in my life at all rn. im mostly alone -

yis. obv i wan to transition asapasapasap…

yisyis samesies! <3

woahg bein a grl wud like - change soooo much. lik thads like -… hmmm lemmi think… thads about a 3x increase in qualiti of life i thinks.

is like - the kindsa thing where u jus like - slowly realize what opens up - - - -

lik - jus like - woahg.

• u cn hav reaspnabl frens <3
• u cn be interpreted as bein reasonbl from the start
• u dun hav to explain urslelf
• u dun lik - hav to try n strike balance between what peeps expect n whad u wan
• u cn jus lik - go a place n be seen as lik - the character u r, n nt that guy whos trying to force his bs body onto u
• u cn go swimmin! with comf one-piece swimsuit! :o lik - finalli feelin bits safer there…

• u cn go to the shoppin shop place n get whad u wan without like - feelin uncomf cuz ur the weird one out… or cuz othr peeps be looking weird at u… or cuz u feel false there cuz u kno ur nt real grl… yea! all that stuff wud jus - POOF! - gon. cuz ur a grl! 🏳️‍⚧️👗🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵👩‍❤️‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩
• u cn watch my little pony n say “im the target audience” n u wud be right! ~
• u cn go to FLINTA meetups without feelin… wrong… (is a German thing I think. means: Feminine, Lesbian, Intersex, Non-binary, Transgender, Agender. onli the most comf peeps <3 )
• u cn dress how u wan without havin to to explain why ur wearin it, cuz ur a grl! grls cn wear whatever they wan, n r not to be questioned! ~ father wud never bat an eye if u were jus magically a grl! <3
• u cn sit, stand, walk, lie down, all thad, without feelin uncomf… uncomf sloppery meat hangin about, makin u feel pain for no reason
• u cn finalli watch those cool series ur online frens recommend to u, but hav been puttin off cuz they mek u uncomf ur not them -
• u cn be pretti lil bakery grl who bakes muffins n shares them with peeps! <3 oh thad be sooo cool!! <3 <3 <3
• evn when uncomf horni feelins come - u cn jus… be more fine with em, cuz theyr not physically mekin u u comf, harder to walk, n jus… ew lookin ;(
• u cn hav adult thoughts without feelin incredibli awfulli disgustin n ew for evri thought u hav…
• u cn walk normlli without feelin need to hide body cuz - ur a grl for peet sake - u got nothin to hide! ur jus - pretti! <3 theres no reason to hide… unless evil peeps… want u… which is bad ;(

yesyes bein grl wud be such a genuine… callin it “game changer” is an underatatent, so i call it “life changer”.

yea, lets call it thad.

bein a grl wud be such a genuine life changer, its crazy. u wud focus mor on future cuz now u get to be a grl in the future! <3 u cn focus on ur health cuz u get to be a healthy grl if u do! <3 <3 <3 u cn learn n get smart, cuz if u do, u r a smart grl! <3 👩👓📖🧠 u cn hav frens, cuz then u r a grl in the fren group! u cn make YouTube videos, cuz then peeps watchin kno, thad ur a grl, cuz of ur voice. ur a cool YouTube grl then! <3 :o

yis. thad wud be biggest life changer of all time.

no moni in wrorld would i rather take than dis. no “love ofy life” wud i give up for dis. no. those things crumble in value if i hav to remain a guy as a tradeoff. thads not worth it. onli things i wud trade it for wud be world peace n hungr n stuff.

i kno >;(…

;(

nu. nu. nu. nu. nu.

i dun wan _fetish!!! >;(

nu! nu! nu! nu! nu!

ew! no thank u!

nevr ew agn! NEVR! EW!

u kno whad? im so upset, i talk Oxford pons engish now.

NO! this is AWFUL. I HATE every second in which I’m horny (and thus uncomfortable)!

Like - NO! NO! NO!

NO

Never. Just take that away, just like - just like kill my fertility, I couldn’t care less.

I would almost kill to have that awful disgusting terrible miserable part of my body removed… I would kill… Just not humans… Or myself if I get reborn in some not awful way.

NO! No thank you. I say no to fetish. I say no to horny. I say no to alcohol. I say no to shooting games. I say no to uncomfortable things which make me feel bad things.

NO.

No it’s not a fetish.

It is not. A fetish. No.

No.

No.

No.

NO.

No. This is not right. I feel sick. Not cool sick. I feel sick sick.

When will this alien sickness leave me…

hmm… im unsure about all the training data bein exlusively by apple employees n… for som reason thad nuclear energy argument, while valid and reasonable, meks me angri cuz it sounds lik ur indirectli sayin “well if my power source wouldnt we this gud i wouldn’t have generated it”… evn tho i dun actulli think u meant thad.

::: evil ramble im… iduno, for som reason dis meks me angri… pls dun take it personlli bt ur commnt made it sound kinda like… ur bein better than others… especialli with thad last section… :::

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