I heard the term information paralysis the other day and realized that it describes me perfectly . I get so overwhelmed with new information on something I might want to actually learn that I just stop trying to learn it. I’m pushing 50 I have no savings, live paycheck to paycheck and I see these young adults 30 years younger just making bank investing and AI day trading and would love to try it, I just can’t start because I get overwhelmed on stuff I know nothing about.
My memory is shit I have to read stuff over and over ago before it clicks which builds the frustration
I loved computers as a kid in the late 80s unfortunately everyone in my life, parents teachers said nobody will ever make a living so I just lost touch with that part of me. I’m still a gamer but as far as operating computers well, webpages etc. or how any of it operates I don’t have a clue. I didn’t see a webpage until the day before I graduated highschool
Information or decision paralysis is also an ADHD trait. Also the inferred inability to self-motivate or get better jobs, and of course like you said, the re-reading with inability to get things to stick.
Yeah, it may not be ADHD, but OP’s symptoms rhyme with it. And they definitely don’t get better with age, you just get better at masking some of them.