• wonderingwanderer@sopuli.xyz
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      3 days ago

      I can’t control other people. Other people can choose to not be my friend, to not invite me anywhere, to not talk to me, to leave whenever I show up.

      No, having friends is something beyond my control.

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        3 days ago

        Having specific friends maybe, but get out there and you’re guaranteed to find someone who’s on your sine.

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          16 hours ago

          Wow, it’s really like you have no idea what I’ve actually been through and experienced over the years of trying to do exactly that and persevering even in the face of rejection, ridicule, derision, and scorn.

          Alone might be depressing, but at least it’s peaceful, and I’m getting too old to rock the boat, especially now that I’ve attained a modicum of mental stability.

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        2 days ago

        Honesty just be

        The best way to meet people is to talk to random strangers you happen to see once and a while

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          16 hours ago

          Right, in a world where everyone seems to be saying “Don’t bother strangers in public, nobody wants to be bothered!” I’m supposed to just go out and… talk to strangers… until I magically make friends?

          So all the things people criticized me for in the past (i.e., talking to strangers who apparently didn’t want to be bothered) are now precisely what I’m supposed to do to overcome the symptoms of the social rejection I experienced from being labeled as someone who talks to strangers in public?

          Yeah, I’d rather die alone than twist my brain into knots trying to decode that jumbled mess.

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              7 hours ago

              Yeah, that’s something I’m just not capable of. I tried for years but it always left me perplexed. Humans are strange, ambiguous creatures, and I don’t have whatever it is that let’s them decode each other’s hidden meanings. People have always expected me to just magically know without being told.

              I don’t get it. I never have. When my imagination is all that’s left to fill in the blanks, it comes up with some pretty grotesque distortions. I no longer place any credence in anything I don’t know for fact. I’m too old to lose my sanity again trying to figure out whatever the fuck “read between the lines” even means…