more like an off-kilter broken human at the moment. currently suffering burnout from being neck deep in this shit from the beginning of the year once the models had that step change into actual utility. Everything from championing the use at work to deliver more in a quarter than the team would have in two, to finishing half a dozen personal projects and starting half a dozen more. Eventually, just looking at the claude code tui would fill me anxiety and every time the model would fuck up, unmitigated rage all while caught in a cycle of drugs that stopped being fun and started becoming dependency. i just couldnt do it any more. it hurts.