My old boyfriend died in 2015 (from diabetes) and I’ve been single since then. I also don’t know if I’ll like having sex or not. I am sexually attracted to men/am straight but I don’t know. It’s like the idea of someone doing that to me, I’d find it embarrassing because I’m gross.
I agree with the other comment. Everyone deserves love and there is someone who will desire you. I would seek therapy as something that may help, it always help me. Look in the mirror, when your getting ready for your day and say to yourself. "I am beautiful, I am wanted, I am awesome " Do that everyday, because you are. I am positive you have something wonderful to bring to a relationship, and there is someone out there wanting your love in return.
Share something if you like that you enjoy doing, a hobby. What’s the last book you read, or movie you enjoyed. I am interested to learn new things and it can help by talking about things you enjoy.