My old boyfriend died in 2015 (from diabetes) and I’ve been single since then. I also don’t know if I’ll like having sex or not. I am sexually attracted to men/am straight but I don’t know. It’s like the idea of someone doing that to me, I’d find it embarrassing because I’m gross.
Let’s keep it simple. Are you doing enough in regards to personal hygiene?
If you are making the effort of washing yourself every day and keeping clean, then you deserve some appreciation.
If you aren’t, then start with that. Raise yourself up so that you can think “I’m fresh as fuck and I deserve some lovin’ for it!” and you’ll be good to go.