My old boyfriend died in 2015 (from diabetes) and I’ve been single since then. I also don’t know if I’ll like having sex or not. I am sexually attracted to men/am straight but I don’t know. It’s like the idea of someone doing that to me, I’d find it embarrassing because I’m gross.
Haven’t lost a partner before, but I’ve experienced the feeling of questioning my value. Know others in similar places. Don’t overthink it. It won’t make it better. I’ve found it’s better to act and reflect then mope and regret.