My old boyfriend died in 2015 (from diabetes) and I’ve been single since then. I also don’t know if I’ll like having sex or not. I am sexually attracted to men/am straight but I don’t know. It’s like the idea of someone doing that to me, I’d find it embarrassing because I’m gross.
Aside what the helpful other comment said, it might as well be something of the neurodiversity spectrum that you don’t know of yourself. This may help you a lot understanding yourself and the source of your thoughts.
For me it seemed like yeah thats obviously depression, no, not it, then oh yeah totally hsp and it still might be, and adhs well kinda similar but still not it… And at some point I will know for sure. Well for myself I do but the diagnosis is underway now.