Yes and yes. I’d prefer to disappear completely… including leaving less junk/mess to sort, though neither of those are happening. The best I can do is not buy things.

I can see the don’t-leave-me vs don’t-perceive-me aspect of death, though I think a lot of people using the phrase ‘die alone’ aren’t being quite that literal. Though I don’t have a better outlook with non-literal either. Hopeless.