Insecurity, self doubt, anxiety. To me it sounds like you might have had bullies or someone that used lots of put downs in your life.

I’d imagine you have plenty of room to love and be loved. Having a boyfriend/girlfriend really is less about being worthy and more about wanting one. Why do I say that? Because there are plenty of nasty people in relationships and nasty people single. Same goes for good people.

I’d probably focus on why you are having these thoughts, and if you can, find a good therapist that works with you.

In the meantime meet men, join a club or social event for something you like that also exposes you to men.

As far as sex goes, a good partner will listen to you and work with you. A good partner cares that you enjoy it and feel comfortable and loved. My spouse sees themselves as gross sometimes, but I very rarely see them that way. As long as the hygiene is reasonable, I don’t have issues. But we communicate well, talk through it, and have a good time.

Something to keep in mind, I wouldn’t want to love myself intimately the way they do with me, but I love to be intimate with them in a way they wouldn’t do with themselves. My point is, let them love you and in return you love them back. They can decide what “gross” is for them and through communication you both set your boundaries, be it sex or daily life.

That ended up being a lot. Anyways, always remember to focus on self care when you are unwell. Remember that others may love the flaws that you don’t like, you might do the same for someone else one day too.

It would help if there were guarantees you could download via Nintendo servers for X years as long as the company exists. They would never agree, but something like 40 years. Then if the company no longer exists it’s given to the community.

It’s true though, unless something crazy like that became normal, physical games have significantly more value. I do think that the average person cares more about price and convenience today vs whatever happens tomorrow.